Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been having a strange attack of migraines that last for 5 days at a time
I'm much better now, I'm taking what's called a beta blocker. Turns out it really does hurt when you think too much!
Weight loss was going great until I had my nephews joint super hero party. There was cake and great food. Woops.
I'm becomming naturally happier now the sun is beginning to shine, the season has inspired me greatly. Spring is a time the world blossoms new life despite the weather still being hit and miss, or maybe that's just England.
Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Despite anxiety and depression it actually has been incredible. It has been very difficult and dark. I can't just cover it over with a smile when people ask me if I'm okay and keeping a strong front trying to be that ray of light to others. That's what I want to be. The beacon in the sky that can burst through right to the heart and fill it with hope. I definitely believe in a higher power that is all around. When I surround myself in nature or even just stare out from a bus window I am uplifted, inspired and happier.
I lost myself in the darkness. I lost the light and I struggled always attempting to find myself again. What I did find was something a lot stronger than I ever gave credit for. It's difficult to explain but it's almost like you remove something and then replace it with something else to improve it. I'm learning to accept and love the new person I have become.
So happy that we are almost up to 1,100 watchers! I am truly blessed.
There is one thing that is really annoying me, I got given a painting from an artist who really turned into <Insert very bad words here>. Although it was a gift it's rather tainted now. I have no clue what to do with it, selling it would be amazing but no idea where to start. It's inspired by a very old portfolio picture of mine. It kinda just lurks in my bedroom at my mums house haha. But since they don't really like said person anyway it's a constant reminder of something that should definitely stay in the past.
Love you all!